[Lydia knows she's always going to be unprepared for seeing her. This will be the third time and only the first time that the burden of truth doesn't rest on her shoulders. It doesn't make it any easier for her to start again. To see her with what should be hope for her to be happybhere and instead be struck with all the times she's left before. Where the choice is hers and she opts to go back to death. It doesn't make it hurt less that she still keeps needing to come here. From alternate worlds. Different realms. Always the same fate for her best friend.
Heading over to the given address, she tries to be happy. To not show up at her door in tears. The walk is over sooner than she anticipated, though and she finds herself unsure as she knocks on the door. She hopes that it'll just fall into place. That it will just be like it was before. She has to hope for something.]
[ Ever since Allison heard that Lydia was here she’s wanted to see her, but since Isaac broke the news to her of her own death she’s been wondering if that’s in Lydia’s best interests. Would a meeting with her dead best friend be too painful? Would it be exactly what she needed or would it just be unnecessarily opening old wounds? Allison doesn’t know the answer. She wants to see Lydia, but she’s hesitant wondering if it’ll be a happy meeting.
When she opens the door, there’s a faint smile on her face. The expression is tentative, like she doesn’t know whether or not to smile. Of course she’s pleased to see Lydia. In fact, she wants to throw her arms around her and hug her, but she holds back, waiting and watching her for confirmation that doing such a thing is okay. ]
[She always looks the same. Three different instances of the same girl and she's always the same. Strong features, dark hopeful eyes, and Lydia just sees her best friend - back from the dead again. It should get easier, each time she comes back, but all Lydia thinks about is each time she's left. All the wrong choices she made in telling her - not telling her. Isaac took that burden away, but it still lingers. The regret of previous times of not being there for her.
Even with all that Lydia feels, the most pressing emotion is relief. She steps toward her friend and moves to embrace her.]
[ It’s such a relief when Lydia hugs her. Allison welcomes the gesture, wrapping her arms around her best friend and holding her close. Time works in a funny way between worlds, but in the time Allison has come from Lydia was just abducted by the Nogitsune. Seeing her safe and unharmed gives Allison a kind of relief that can’t be put into words.
After a long moment, she pulls away from the hug with a smile on her face. ]
I’m really glad you’re here, Lydia.
[ She’s not just saying it, either. Allison is truly glad that she has her best friend with her to experience this place with. After a second, she steps to the side and gestures for Lydia to step inside. ]
[Lydia nods, stepping in and glancing around. She keeps expecting to see the Argent home. She knows it's silly, that her own homenisnt even here, but it still feels like an automatic desire.]
I'm sorry I didn't reach out sooner. I know it must have been weird. Knowing I'm here, but not knowing who should reach out first.
It's okay. I don't think there's really a right way to do these things. It's not like they explain who else is here when they invite you.
[She pauses.]
Plus, I know Isaac spoke with you and I -- I've been the one to explain all of that to you twice before. I'm your best friend and I've always felt like it was on me to do it. To be the one to hold your hand and explain the events back home and here.
It's just... I've been here for that twice now and both times you've chosen to leave and I keep thinking it's me. That it's too much to be here for me. For everyone else.
[ ooc: I'm sorry I let this one slip. Life has been abnormally complicated. I'm going to respond, but if you'd like to drop it I'd understand. I would also understand continuing it, though. ]
Lydia... [ Allison smiles softly. She places a hand on her best friend's shoulder, not knowing if in doing so she might be overstepping. This is a weird situation that she doesn't know the rules for. ] I get it. If I had to tell you time after time that you...
[ It gets caught in her throat. Allison doesn't like thinking about any of her friends dying, especially not Lydia. Especially when just before arriving she'd thought Lydia's life was in danger. ]
If I had to tell you that you'd died even one time it would be extremely hard on me. You're stronger, but you shouldn't have to push your limits like that. It's okay to rely on someone else to deliver the bad news.
[She waits for Allison's words to come to a close, but the touch to her shoulder had brought her back to a need of just having her best friend here. Lydia moves to pull her into a hug, holding onto her tightly. She misses her every time she leaves and each time she comes back she just hopes it'll stick. Lydia doesn't go home out of fear of missing out on time with her.]
[ Allison's arms also wrap around Lydia, hugging her close. It means the world to her knowing that her best friend is safe and sound and right in front of her. She rests her chin on Lydia's shoulder. ]
I'm glad you're here, too.
[ She smiles even though Lydia can't see the expression on her face. ]
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Date: 2017-01-13 06:37 am (UTC)[ She includes the address. ]
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Date: 2017-01-13 07:28 am (UTC)[Lydia knows she's always going to be unprepared for seeing her. This will be the third time and only the first time that the burden of truth doesn't rest on her shoulders. It doesn't make it any easier for her to start again. To see her with what should be hope for her to be happybhere and instead be struck with all the times she's left before. Where the choice is hers and she opts to go back to death. It doesn't make it hurt less that she still keeps needing to come here. From alternate worlds. Different realms. Always the same fate for her best friend.
Heading over to the given address, she tries to be happy. To not show up at her door in tears. The walk is over sooner than she anticipated, though and she finds herself unsure as she knocks on the door. She hopes that it'll just fall into place. That it will just be like it was before. She has to hope for something.]
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Date: 2017-01-16 03:51 am (UTC)When she opens the door, there’s a faint smile on her face. The expression is tentative, like she doesn’t know whether or not to smile. Of course she’s pleased to see Lydia. In fact, she wants to throw her arms around her and hug her, but she holds back, waiting and watching her for confirmation that doing such a thing is okay. ]
Hey, Lydia.
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Date: 2017-01-16 04:27 am (UTC)Even with all that Lydia feels, the most pressing emotion is relief. She steps toward her friend and moves to embrace her.]
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Date: 2017-01-18 06:25 am (UTC)After a long moment, she pulls away from the hug with a smile on her face. ]
I’m really glad you’re here, Lydia.
[ She’s not just saying it, either. Allison is truly glad that she has her best friend with her to experience this place with. After a second, she steps to the side and gestures for Lydia to step inside. ]
Come on in, make yourself at home.
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Date: 2017-01-18 06:36 am (UTC)I'm sorry I didn't reach out sooner. I know it must have been weird. Knowing I'm here, but not knowing who should reach out first.
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Date: 2017-01-22 06:05 am (UTC)It was weird, yeah.
[ A beat. ]
I'm sorry I didn't reach out to you first, Lydia. I feel like I probably should have.
[ She bites at the inside of her mouth uneasily. ]
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Date: 2017-01-25 03:41 am (UTC)[She pauses.]
Plus, I know Isaac spoke with you and I -- I've been the one to explain all of that to you twice before. I'm your best friend and I've always felt like it was on me to do it. To be the one to hold your hand and explain the events back home and here.
It's just... I've been here for that twice now and both times you've chosen to leave and I keep thinking it's me. That it's too much to be here for me. For everyone else.
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Date: 2017-02-17 01:34 am (UTC)Lydia... [ Allison smiles softly. She places a hand on her best friend's shoulder, not knowing if in doing so she might be overstepping. This is a weird situation that she doesn't know the rules for. ] I get it. If I had to tell you time after time that you...
[ It gets caught in her throat. Allison doesn't like thinking about any of her friends dying, especially not Lydia. Especially when just before arriving she'd thought Lydia's life was in danger. ]
If I had to tell you that you'd died even one time it would be extremely hard on me. You're stronger, but you shouldn't have to push your limits like that. It's okay to rely on someone else to deliver the bad news.
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Date: 2017-02-26 07:13 am (UTC)I'm so glad you're here.
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Date: 2017-03-14 12:22 am (UTC)I'm glad you're here, too.
[ She smiles even though Lydia can't see the expression on her face. ]
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Date: 2017-03-15 01:12 am (UTC)Have you been doing okay here? I mean, other than all the bad news Isaac delivered to you.
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Date: 2017-03-26 05:40 am (UTC)I've been doing alright. I've made some new acquaintances, seen the zoo... It's been pretty nice, bad news aside. I might stay here a while.